A little ranting never hurt anyone...

Days like today make me wonder why I live the life I do or what the purpose of it all truly is. I have two short days until Spring Break and I wish the week would SLOW DOWN! Crazy? Indeed. Do not be mistaken, I am in desperate need of a break, but this next week will not resemble much of a break. Today I have realized how unhappy some people must be. Professors in particular. I have come to a point where I no longer feel as though someone wants me to learn, but more so they want to torture me. It is as though they have a personal vendetta to make all future college students suffer as they apparently did through school. I am no longer learning...I am going through the motions. I wake up, go to class, cry between classes, eat, go to work, go home, and do homework. Fun? No. Memorable? Yes, because I will never forget how the "best years of my life" were pure hell. Shouldn't this be fun? Shouldn't I desire to stay inside this bubble forever? Perhaps, but for the time being. I am miserable. This has made me wonder if I have messed up somewhere along the way. Have I followed the Lord? Is this where He wants me? What am I missing in this world? Where is the message in all of this? Where, my Father?!

I don't know all the answers but here's what I do know:
Life is temporary and that truly is a gift, grades don't matter to the Lord-He will not ask to see your report card, I just have to do my best-everyday, life is hard-but we wouldn't learn if it wasn't, professors have a great big stick up their butt but be a light that might change that grumpy demeanor...and most of all, despite failing a test or messing up on a paper...my Jesus loves me. He is holding me despite my desire for worldly things such as a 4.0 or a pretty piece of paper saying that I am intelligent enough to make a decent amount of money. The Lord never requires a degree to do His work...so why am I so wrapped up in getting one? Am I going to use it for His service? I hope so! But for now...News Writing still sucks, Research Methods is dumb, and Sales is pointless and I want to be able to enjoy my Spring Break!