My thought for the day?

I wish my desk had a place for me to stretch out my legs. My knees are killing me!

Court comes for a visit tonight. Then I go home tomorrow for graduation. I haven't spent one weekend in Lubbock since school let out. My car is ready to shoot me.

RSVP cards.

The other night the Lord gave me a clear word. I was quick to kind of brush it off and call it strange, but He continued to push it. He asked me why I continue to send Him invitations with an RSVP card included. I was unclear on His meaning behind this, and then it hit. I often send invitations to God for various reasons, His presence, His help, etc. But each time I send the invitation, I also include an RSVP card. Why, is what the Lord asked? There is never a question to what His response is going to be, so why do I doubt Him? He will always come to where He is invited, without fail. Each time I send an RSVP card, I allow myself to doubt His miraculous ways and unfailing love. By using an RSVP card, I make His place at the event optional and easily dismissed. By doing this, I do not truly invite Him. I merely make a suggestion. God does not need my suggestions; He is the Almighty!

My prayer and mission is to stop sending RSVP cards and truly trust His promise. He has never let me down before, and He never will. :)

science, logic, and Christ.

Let's be honest, growing up in West Texas few of us were exposed to atheism, disbelief, or agnostics. In addition to the lack of contact, we were never taught "how to deal" (for lack of a better term). The Bible Belt doesn't tolerate this unique group of individuals. In fact, we are more often taught to avoid becoming corrupt by this group or to resort to drastic measures to save them. To be honest, no wonder they fervently hate Christians. Most have done a poor job of being examples of Christ's love. Myself, included. And for this, I am sorry for my behavior.

However, I feel that our mission as Christians is to bring the lost to Him. So, I sit here and struggle to find a way of presenting the case for Christ in a manner that will appeal to non-believers. Most athiests use science as their wall. So, science is where I look. I look for a scientific way of explaining Christ, but He defies all scientific explanation. To be honest, I was never very good as science, anyways. There would be no way I could explain it from that standpoint. And then I realize, I am not meant to explain it because I, myself, have very few explanations for Christ. I do have one...love.

Though I am far from knowledgeable about every piece of history or science, I do have access to His heart. He has opened this up to us so that we may witness the unexplainable. I can't tell you why He loves us so much, but He does. Isn't it worth far more to bask in that wonderful miracle than to spend a lifetime of nothing special trying to explain the Almighty? We must face facts that His love trumps all facts that one may consider to contradict Him because He is the Truth! Nothing exists without Him or makes sense without Him.

So, here I sit, and I say goodbye to logic and science, and I stick to what I know. His love. Because that means more than anything else ever will.

THE Heather Vassar :)

Ok, so, photography just got FUN! Last night, Heather Vassar is so sweet by the way, 2 other photogs. and I took like a 4 hour photo session of HV. She was so nice and accomodating and the pictures turned out great! I think I've come to the conclusion that photo. is probably not what I want to do as a career. However, it's a great hobby and I can't wait to try it more and more. I really feel like if I made it my "work", I wouldn't enjoy it as much. It would take the fun out, so remain a hobby it shall! Even though I'm late for work and still have a ton more to do before this afternoon, I thought this deserved a blog. Even though I am sure no one reads these. God is so so so so good. He really is :)

Just a few of my favorites :)

Pictures...Pictures...Pictures.

I have been eating, drinking, and living photography these past few days. Fun? Maybe not as much as I thought it would be. However, I am learning quite a bit. 1)I'm not very good and 2) I love it anyways.

I just thought it might be worth it to publish a few :)

This is a shot of the statue outside the SUB. Apparently, this statue contains inappropriate and PG-13 images...I was unaware. :)

I just love this building :)

That's all for now folks. More updates soon :)

Destiny vs. assignment.

I am guilty of a crime. My crime is against the human race and against my God. Recently, I was listening to a sermon by Bill Johnson (props to Nathan for telling me about him) and Johnson was speaking about destiny vs. assignment. He said they are two very different things and our destiny is GOING to Heaven; whereas, our assignment is BRING Heaven. I'm not going to lie, this took some time to wrap my head around.

It wasn't until I was able to fully grasp this concept did I realize I had committed a crime against humanity and my fellow children of God. Often I learn something from the Lord and then consider it to be the end of the lesson. One thing He has taught me recently was to stop being judgemental and to love people for who they are. I am so thankful for this; however, I let it turn me into something that I should not be. I became uncaring towards how others perceive God's will or plans for their lives. In my attempts to become "unjudgemental", I became a recluse who was only concerned with her own relationship with God. I was hiding in my destiny to GO to Heaven instead of pursuing my assignment. I love people, but I let them live their lives and trust they will find God in their own time. Their own time may not be enough time. I discovered I truly do not know or show the love of God unless I am doing my very best to bring Heaven into this world, everday. Which I have not, and for this, I am deeply sorry.

The lost world cannot wait for me to become comfortable in BRINGING Heaven. I can no longer hide behind a door and wait until I am "knowledgeable" enough to become bold. Everyday is a battle to bring Heaven into the hearts of the lost and for far too long, I have stood on the sidelines. I am tired of comfort and of my crimes. It's time to bring Heaven.

My dear Abba Father, teach me to fufill my assignment. I thank you for trusting me to do your work Father and I pray to trust you to help me. Bless me oh Father God! You are the Almighty, my Beloved, and my Rock! To You I cling!